Archive for April, 2009

My Inner Student

Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

It is … *counts fingers and toes* … eleven years since I graduated from uni with my PGCE. Nope, twelve years.

(yes, i teach some maths, sigh)

I spent five years at university - the first year I did a BEd in primary teaching, but gave that up because I realised I didn’t actually want to teach ickle nippers. I spent the next three years working towards a BA (Hons) in Religious Studies and Sociology (with a smattering of English Literature thrown in for good measure) and finished it all off with a post graduate teaching qualification.

And then I entered the Big Bad World of Being an Adult and Holding Down a Job.

I loved being a student.  Those few years were, without doubt, the best years of my life (until I met The Blokey, naturally*).

I have no idea how I managed to get a 2.1 (Hons) degree.  I drank copious amounts of alcohol, indulged in many (disasterous) love affairs and flirtations, spent many moonlit hours talking, frolicking in parks, laughing on beaches, or walking on hills, and barely listened in lectures because I was always too busy daydreaming. 

Back then we didn’t have a plethora of knowledge at our fingertips by virtue of the World Wide Web (although I did recieve my very first email address during my last year there, but I never used it because I didn’t know how) and it was more than acceptable to give in hand-written essays.  No ordinary person had a mobile phone (I had only ever seen one, and that was on Only Fools and Horses) and we didn’t need jobs to see us through uni because we didn’t mind living in squalor and eating beans and instant noodles everyday.

I miss that life I had.  It was very carefree, very laidback and amazingly good fun.  But I couldn’t ever live that life again.  I can, however, give in to my inner student and indulge her thirst for knowledge and learning.  Which is why I signed up for another course with the Open University.

I considered a Masters, but finances – although not limited – are not really available for that.  Not to mention my head.  I really don’t think my head could cope with a Masters after this many years away from the World of Study.  So, I’ve signed up for a module called An Introduction to the Social Sciences.  It’s worth thirty credits and Tesco have paid for it (thank you Tesco!) … I’m looking at it as an Introduction to Studying Again, with a view to doing the second part of the course which begins in October, as this first part finishes. 

This gives me a year to consider my options.  Option one would be that it’s a bit of fun, but studying really isn’t for me now and I should try my hand at something else instead.  I’m hoping I don’t need to really consider that option.  Option two (which is the most likely) is that I’ll end up studying for a second degree, probably either in Psychology or Criminology. Option three will be the Masters. 

But for now I’m just going to enjoy this contemporary student lark.  I can do my research on the Internet, listen to lecturers on my iPod whilst sitting on the bus, type up (gasp) my essays and not turn up for tutorials without being penalised for not doing so. 

It’s like another world!

I have discovered that my love of lolling around on the bed with books spread out around me, and highlighters tangled up in my hair, is a preferred learning method which hasn’t quite buggered off.  It will make it impossible to type up essays though (what with the fact that I don’t own a laptop) …

(* just in case he’s pulled up a chair and started reading)

Happyendingification

Saturday, April 4th, 2009

 I love books, despite the fact that I rarely read any these days.  I have shelves full of them, everything from childhood escapism in the form of Enid Blyton and Judy Blume, through to books about the historical Jesus which you need a brain and a half to understand.  Chaucer and Hardy can be found frolicking with Mormon bibles and stories about dead girls in churches, whilst Pratchett and King have wholesome conversations with UFO nuts and cool girls who knit.

When I was little I had more time for books.  I was the little geeky kid (with bunches) who lived in the library and just visited home occasionally in the hope of being fed and watered.    I would read anything and everything I could get my hands on.

I can still remember some of my most favourite books from icklehood.  I had a huge hardback book (blue it was) which was full of Christmas poetry and stories.  That book helped me to learn The Night Before Christmas by heart.  There Was An Old Lady Who Swallowed A Fly?  Oh mother!  But the one book which really grabbed hold of my heart tightly was The Little Match Girl (Hans Christian Anderson.)  It was a hardback book, about the size of an annual and it ignited a whole host of emotions within ickle me.

But it never bothered me that she died at the end.   It just seemed natural that it should happen and it made the story as happy as it made it sad.

(You did know she dies at the end, right?)

I don’t think I’ve ever craved happy endings whilst reading books.  I like books (and films) where the ending fits.  If it doesn’t fit then my world has a tendency to come crashing down in annoyance.  Take Harry Potter.  I wasn’t fussed how that ended as long as Snape was proven to be the Good Guy.  If his Good Guy status hadn’t been acknowledged then the ending wouldn’t have fitted.  It was the only appropriate ending (for me, who came to see the books as more about Snape than Harry.)

I’ve read so very few books this year, but my two favourite have been The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas(John Boyne) and Once (Morris Gleitzman), both of which are children’s books set in Poland during World War II and both of which saw me unashamedly sob.   One of them ended with a main character dying and the other ended in such a way that the imagination of the reader could go off in many different tangents, searching for an ending which suited their reading of the book. 

But each of the endings suited the story that they began with.  And that’s what makes them great books.  Without the death of the main character in one, the story would have been made redundant.  Without an open ending the other book would have lost impact; the story told was one which couldn’t see the main character die, yet we couldn’t see him live either.  In truth, we didn’t actually need to know.

Yet both these stories could have had a happy joyous ending.  Both boys could have been shown to have survived and grown up.  But how contrived would that have been?  It would have kept the Happy Ending brigade happy, but it wouldn’t have been a reflection of real life would it? 

Life isn’t always made up of Happy Endings.  And even in times of recession, climate change and war we don’t need happyendingification applied to all forms of film and book. 

But I do sometimes wonder what would have happened to The Little Match Girl if she had survived the cold night …

(this post was inspired by this BBC article)